on and on.

i think i have insomnia.

last night was the 2nd night within 4 days that i simply couldn't sleep! tried turning in at 2.30am, felt like my body was giving way but my brain was wide awake. so i woke up after a while to work till about 5am instead. haha not that i was being productive, but the thought of spending 2 hours in bed just tossing and turning around made me even more anxious.

and then 7am really sucked.
but i still went to lecture anyway. and i survived the day! haha.

today's 205 meeting was kinda heated discussion as usual. maybe with more gunpowder today? haha but all was good in the end, mostly thanks to.. shall refer to him as PaPa J. cos i think he's calm like any other dad in this world LOL thanks PaPa J! =]

anyway personally, i'm quite glad to be the group i'm in now. it's a fresh and new experience for me (since i've been doing projects with BFG for a long time haha) no doubt discussions can get pretty fiery, but it's made me truly believe - there's always a way to solve things.

tho i don't think i'm of much help most of the time..not that i don't speak up, but more that i'm too easily influenced haha. so..i think i'm kinda like a multi-answer multiple choice question? A,B,C and D are all correct! lol.

i guess we all have different ways of approaching things. and i don't really mind heated moments (it's strangely funny sometimes haha) but sometimes, i really wished i could do something more to alleviate and help everyone come to a common consensus. the thing is, i totally suck at that i know.

but nvm, i shall work on it guys haha.
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i really enjoyed today's training. it's been so long since i've sweat like that haha.

honestly when they let me play the drum just now for that short minute or so, i felt ECSTATIC! haha embarassing but true, i felt like fireworks lol. i've never really had an audience before.

learning stunts with the pail today was fun fun fun haha. all thanks to my new-found partner.. MAK! she's really amazing..she learns as fast as lightning haha and she's so good! but i'm still a bit afraid to jump or lean on her.. i scared bully you ahz mak! but i will promise to lose some weight ok lol.

i heart this feeling of learning something that i love. it's much easier than trying to love something that i can learn haha.

i predict 5 new bruises will emerge tomorrow morning on my trotters tomorrow lol. mak! it means i'm getting you some ointment too =P