breathe.

could hardly breathe while walking to SRC this morning. it felt empty, nauseating and stressful.

and seeing the huge NBS crowd upon reaching SRC..it was absolutely suffocating.

suddenly felt that the stakes were high. that with just one paper, it could determine whether we get red ink on our result slip. and thanks to this brilliant course where everyone gets the paper 1 week before the exam, i felt like i was entering a war-zone.

is it really that competitive? or is it just me?
or is it the nature of our our course?

cos this is what it feels like to me:
Results ≠ Hardwork

it feels more like:
Results = Hardwork x Luck

oh wait, forgot a very important component:
Results = Hardwork x Luck x Performance

haiz, why don't they exclude "Luck" and "Performance" in our GPA system?!?

ok, it just sucks to know that results may not be a function of hard work. but i'm not gonna stop trying! two more papers to go! and 4 more to the end of my university suffering!

hang in there, everyone!
hang in there, myself.

shit, it's so much harder to convince myself than convince others.
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anyway halfway during the paper today i found out the cause of my nausea. noooooooo i'm not pregnant. in fact it was the effects of 大姨妈! Nsync's Cry me a River could best describe my situation. can't believe i actually trudged all the way to Can A without realizing her prowess.

but nvm, i'm thankful i wasn't alone when i discovered lol. and i'm thankful for her regularity, although it deprived me (and sk) of a good lunch.

and i'm thankful...

for had i not visited the toilet before eating, i'd have stained the lovely white cushioned seats at the cafe.

and that's the reason why i had to leave guys! lol it was to spare you all the agony of watching me crying a red river.