Tuesday, December 30, 2008

hello 2009.

time to kiss 2008 goodbye!

and time for new year resolutions again, although i hardly follow up (and i don't think anyone does seriously lol).

i'm flawed in too many ways..
so this year is simple, all i wish for is to be better person.

as a student, i wanna learn as much as i can and study harder.
as a daughter and sister, i wanna be more patient.
as a friend, i wanna be there as much as i can.
as part of NTUDL, i wanna sweat my all, and enjoy the precious moments with them.

haha and finally as a gf, i have plenty to say.
but on the whole, i just wanna grow up..
i've been upset about mahjong sessions.
i've been sad about forgotten SMSes.
i've been expecting him to remember where i am, and what am i doing today.

and i've been jealous at other girls who ask him out for like shopping or movies, knowing he's already attached. i guess this jealousy is inevitable for any normal girl..that's why love is irrational haha.
cos rationally, it should be alright for any girl and any guy to go out together, right?

anyway, the thing is, i've forgotten that there exists an element of "trust" in every relationship.
that a relationship is not a burden, but a way of life that is shared between two loving individuals.
that we have forgotten that nothing is for sure, cos there may be a time to rejoice, but there also could be a time to part.
there will be need for compromises and forgiveness, but most of all, there is a need for openness and freedom, giving each other a space to breathe.

and this year, i'm really ready to grow up.
i am slowly, but surely changing my stuck-in-the-mud-folly point of view..

openness, forgiveness, compromise, and a space to breathe..
hell, we could and should even start dating other people again haha.

cos at the end of the day, what really matters most is fate, trust,
and withstanding the test of time =]

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