goodbye.

goodbye, !@#$%^ black monsters!

so today marks the end of my internship. guess it didnt "end with a bang" for me - my incompetency had left a half-completed case for my fellow intern (mud) who's gonna be there for another two weeks. (sorry mud, if you ever read this, i apologize for all the crap im leaving you!) mum asks why i didnt offer to extend the internship till i finish the job. but guess i cant imagine staying on for another two weeks..haha. the truth is, sometimes i feel quite inferior in that place. dont get me wrong, it's a great place, but something at the back of my mind tells me maybe i dont really belong there.

anyway its over. and im very thankful for the wonderful people ive met these 8 weeks, who have guided me and helped me survive. special thanks to my fellow interns for all the crazy times, and for being patient with me haha. baa-baa black sheep, thats me. and im looking forward to the party tmr night! shall post up pics when i get them.

i think skinz is right, sometimes i just need a tad more confidence in myself. but it's always easier to believe in others than in our own selves, aye?

but i think even 10 million times more confidence will never allow me to overcome my fear for cockroaches. yes, those freakin disgusting, black, CRUNCHY things that are born with the gift to fly and crawl and totally freak us human beings out. i battled with one in my toilet last night (yes, it's my toilet now) and one outside my room, and one INSIDE my room after that. hey, i clean my room okay! i just dunno what's wrong with this place, makes me think twice about living in a forest. i remember clearly the incident at home when a cockroach flew onto my left cheek with a *PIAK*.. i cried almost immediately and went right back into the bathroom for a second bath. ever since, ive been so damn terrified of these black monsters. anyway, i was literally drowning my lungs with Baygon for 1 hour until skinz came to my rescue. he found my squatting helplessly outside my door, evicted out of my room by the black tyrant (im not racist). but the idea of the boyfriend rushing over to rescue his girlfriend from a dead cockroach is super slappable and im ready to slap myself 20 times for that. dear if you're reading this, im so sorry! =(

10 million years ago, the Neanderthals were 50 times bigger than these harmless creatures. 10 million years later, humans are still 50 times bigger than these creatures, but we've become so afraid of them. i wonder why.