who i really am~

the good, the bad, and the ugly~

really thanks a lot guys, very thankful im not alone =)

woke up at 8am, actually i was already rolling around on my bed at 7.30am. and not only this morning, it happens every morning!! argh talk about work hazards, i consider this one.

well 8am is a good time to do some soul searching haha.

you know sometimes i wonder what kind of person i really am. i feel there are so many misconceptions. most people tell me im kind with good temper (really! i didnt make it up by myself lol) and approachable. but personally i know i can be that stubborn and aggressive. and as mum always says, i wasn't born a tiger for nothing. i blow up pretty easily, but maybe more when im by myself. and i can be damn vulgar and rude to people, though only if they're rude to people first. well guess im not a saint, so that my law of reciprocity.

i may be independent and unafraid to do things by myself. but in truth, sometimes i yearn for comfort and people to lean on. true, i do think a lot for other people and care a lot for their welfare - most of the time i just do and don't question what im doing, yet sometimes i suddenly get tired of doing that and i wonder why im doing that. this is the part that worries me most, cos it makes me wonder whether im just a hypocrite.

and (this is funny) i think im rather wild on the inside. sometimes i really yearn for things like clubbing, dancing, drinking and just going crazy somewhere. just thankful that ive been brought up to discern right from wrong, so i don't do stupid things. and i know its bad, but i love the feeling of drinking and getting drunk..when im troubled, i want to drink to forget. when im happy, i want to drink to celebrate. i think only ah weay has truly seen my ugly habit. anyway hope i wont be a troubled person in my worklife, cos if not i can forsee spending my nights with liquor and kissing my money goodbye haha.

hmm, so im not sucha good person after all huh. im still in the process of trying to understand myself better so feel free to drop comments ok?

anywayyyyy, after all that hip hype hoop about highlighting my hair, maybe i wont after all haha. yup, you are right =)